newyorknative | Yes I want you, and that’s the way it is

Fiyero's never quite had to figure out making a home for himself. He could adjust his living spaces in his various schools, to some extent. But he's either not had too much power over his room, or he's moved on quickly enough that there just wasn't a point. So his instinct isn't to do a lot to upgrade in general, or decorate, or anything. So he might have thoughts of what they lack, without necessarily taking steps to improve it. Maybe together, they'll eventually get stuff. Peter is far more proactive in getting Fiyero things.

"Something to watch?" Fiyero requests as Peter grabs the laptop. He doesn't know what. There's so much, he has no idea what he will find interesting or what Peter likes or what is available. All he knows is his phone seemed to have an endless supply of little things to enjoy. Maybe not a full long thing, but something light?

~~Seems that they're both a little more proactive when it comes to improving each other's situations than their own...~~

Peter blinks, finger poised over the music app he was scrolling through. He obliges, minimizing it to find his media - it's mostly movies, a meager collection with some TV shows scattered throughout. "Sure. I've got... movies, television, YouTube - you were watching that before, the BattleBots? What are you feeling... fantasy, comedy, romance, drama...?"

If it's up to Peter, he'll probably be a total dork and put on Star Trek. What's not to love about a dog dressed up as an alien? So maybe he was raised by hippies and his taste is calibrated as such, what about it?

Peter pulls the laptop down into his lap, swapping his plate to the nightstand as he scrolls through their options. He doesn't really know what Fiyero's taste in entertainment is either, besides 'anything to do with music' - and he could find a musical on offer - but as both of them well know by now, Peter would love to find out.

Fiyero gives a one-shouldered shrug, squinting down at the laptop. Not like it'll help - he has no idea what any of these titles are. He barely knows the difference between movies and television - Peter mentioned it at some point but he may have already forgotten.

"Something funny or simple?" he suggests. The problem with comedy is it depends entirely what the comedy is about, as he might lack context for why something is actually funny. "Nothing too long. Doesn't need to be fiction either."

He doesn't want something that requires a lot of attention or emotional investment. The machines fighting was fun for that, but he'd probably want something different this time. At some point he's probably going to use that video thing to just go through all kinds of things and see what he likes.

"Hm..." Peter hums thoughtfully as he looks through their options, eventually settling on his YouTube homepage. He doubts Fiyero would have any interest in the scientist YouTubers he follows - he scrolls past Hank Green, Vsauce, the usuals. Unsurprisingly, his algorithm is all nerd nonsense. Something funny, simple, short...

"Oh!" He quickly scrolls to his subscriptions, finding Mythbusters near the top. Peter nudges his shoulder against Fiyero's, leaving it pressed up against him when he finds he's pretty comfortable there, actually. He scrolls through the videos with undisguised glee, tilting the laptop towards Fiyero. "Want to see something explode?"

There are plenty of videos where nothing explodes, but there are plenty where something does, as evidenced by the thumbnails. Exploding manhole cover, grenades and guts - there's no shortage to choose from.

"...When you ask it like that, yes, of course," Fiyero answers with amusement at Peter's glee. It's always a delight seeing him excited, though in this case he seems excited because he thought of something they both would enjoy.

Fiyero's looks at the screen, and snorts when he sees an exploding, flaming toilet. "That one," he suggests, poking the screen to start the video. (Forgive him, he's been using YouTube on the phone where you poke the screen...) But at least Peter will know exactly the one to click on to start watching.

He settles in next to Peter, and picks up his forearm to lift it over Fiyero's head, making it very clear he wants that arm around him so he can snuggle up closer. Now that Peter is done eating for now, Fiyero has no compunction about stealing one of Peter's arms for his own comfort.

The Mythbusters show turns out to be very relaxing. Yes, there's a promised explosion teased at the beginning, but a lot of it is them being silly and talking about things in a way even Fiyero understands. There's context he's missing, but most of it gets explained well enough, and he might even learn some science things.

Soon enough, Fiyero has finished his food too, albeit while feeding Peter a few pieces as well. He can feel himself getting full, which never seems to be a problem for Peter. Besides, with the stuff he wants to put Peter through, all the more important to make sure he's fuelled up.

Peter tucks Fiyero into his side with a grin, queuing up the video and settling down to watch. Fiyero seems settled as well, truly settled, and for a moment Peter zones out, shapeless colors moving on the screen in his eyesight, wondering. Wondering how it could really be like this, a moment so unbelievably domestic that Peter briefly wonders, for a second, if it's real, or if maybe the stress of existing has finally made him crack. Because the stress is there, always, perpetually, but at this same exact moment he's happy, and that seems like it should be an impossibility.

And for someone who can throw a truck, that's, well, a lot.

True to form, Fiyero reels him back from the edge of rumination with a gentle touch, pressing food to his lips, warm skin shifting against his own. Peter accepts everything he offers, though he does demand sips of water from Fiyero in exchange, holding the cup up to Fiyero's lips every so often. After making him sweat - figuratively and literally, muscles taut and mouth engaged - Peter wants him hydrated. Trust him... charley horses in the middle of the night sucked.

He checks his phone, opening a text from May. A selfie, with her bug eye glasses in the bottom of the frame, showing off the new MRI machine at the hospital. Peter smiles, saving it immediately. Normally he would send her one back, but Peter doesn't dare confront the embarrassed flush that lies for him on the other side of that door. He knows it would make her brilliantly happy, but he also knows he might very well die if he adds her happy to his happy. They always did work each other up that way, two emotional people sparking, catching alight. The difference was, they used to have Ben in the middle to bring balance to their little family unit.

Instead, he sends her a text - that's the biggest camera i've ever seen! 📸 - and after a moment, offers her what he can:

fiyero's coming to dinner tomorrow
if that's okay?

...maybe he can add a little of her happy to his happy.

They are very good at looking out for each other, in all sorts of ways. Fiyero might not always ask for the kind of care he yearns for, but most of the time he will at least accept it when offered. Peter is similar, occasionally putting up an argument, but easily convinced. Fiyero too finds himself... remarkably happy. If not free of troubles, at least they can have these moments.

He seems to sink further and further into the bed as they watch, once he finishes his plate and sets it down on the chair. An arm wrapped across Peter's waist, his stubbly cheek resting on Peter's chest as he snuggles into him as much as he can while still seeing the screen.

It does start giving him a little bit of a shoulder cramp though, so he reluctantly pushes himself up again. "You were saying something about a massage?" he prompts cheekily as Peter writes something in his phone. Peter's got this sweet little smile, and Fiyero wants to burn it into his brain forever - and give him many more of those, hopefully.

Peter clicks the phone shut even as it buzzes - her response immediately enthusiastic, he's sure, he doesn't even need to look - countenance pleasantly rosy. He sets it aside on the nightstand, reaching out eagerly to Fiyero when he pushes himself up, hand caressing his cheek. "Mm, yes I think I do recall that..."

"C'mere," Peter divests his lap of the computer, setting it aside on the desk. He prods Fiyero's shoulder playfully, guiding him towards laying down on his front and pillowing his arms. His palms smooth up Fiyero's biceps, over his shoulders, settling in the high center of Fiyero's back as Peter shifts himself, pulling a very similar straddling maneuver as Fiyero did earlier. He tucks his knees so he doesn't put the whole of his weight on Fiyero, giving himself the space to move. "You must be tight, after that."

"And this morning," Peter leans down to murmur in Fiyero's ear, hands kneading slowly but firmly down his back, then up again, with a calibrated amount of pressure. "You're very ambitious..."

Fiyero is easily arranged, following the encouraging nudges Peter gives him. He lies down with his head on his arms, able to turn his head towards the desk to continue watching the rest of the episode at least partially paying attention.

It's just nice to have Peter touch him like this. A massage is great, of course, but getting one from Peter is particularly wonderful. They're very tactile when it comes to showing affection, and this is yet another way they can do it.

Fiyero snickers a little at Peter's suggestive comments, back tensing up briefly with the laughter before relaxing under his hands. It feels even better than anticipated, so he'll definitely be making the occasional quiet moan of appreciation. "I am, yes. Still have plenty of untested ideas, too," he answers cheekily.

For how different they are, there are certain ways they're the same. Peter might have been briefly worried about his tendency towards romance, but he doesn't have to worry about this. Fiyero welcomes his touch, and gives his own freely, coaxes Peter to do the same. He's so aware all the time, it's relaxing to just bask in Fiyero's presence. Taking the opportunity to memorize the planes of Fiyero's body certainly doesn't hurt things, either; Peter sets himself to making sweeps up and down Fiyero's back, methodically rubbing out his muscles.

"I hope the show isn't giving you inspiration," Peter teases, beaming at the soft moan he gets out of Fiyero, knuckles rolling down his lower back. The Mythbusters are doing something with hairspray and a lit match, and Peter bends to brush a quick kiss to Fiyero's hair. His hands move, shifting to rub along Fiyero's arms, then down his sides, anywhere the rope could have pulled.

"Not so far," Fiyero answers with quiet amusement. It's more difficult to concentrate on it now, full of food and having an amazing massage, making him just want to take another nap - but he doesn't want to nap the entire day away, and once the fullness eases, he'll probably get another burst of energy.

"Not a big lover of fire. So don't worry, I won't accidentally burn the house down," he continues playfully. It's entertaining watching it from a safe distance on the screen though. That sort of appreciation of the raw power without having to be actually close to it himself.

Fiyero tugs a pillow under his head, then shifts to put his arms down his sides, giving Peter access to other parts and also relaxing his shoulders in a different position. It's very pleasant, the loosening of his muscles and the touching of the sore places - as well as the kisses that just make him feel nice and warm and content.

"No?" Peter hums quietly, with interest, but also willing to let it drop if Fiyero wants it to. He can't say he's a huge fan of it either, but then, the most his experience extends to is May's gas range and running through burning buildings (it happens more often than you'd think). It's not as though he's ever really gone camping or had to start a fire himself.

Peter does another pass over Fiyero's back, rubbing everything out, watching as Fiyero grew more and more relaxed, tension in his muscles easing, loosening. He drags his thumb down Fiyero's spine, rubbing on either side of it, pursuing any twinges with attention and care.

After a bit, Peter shifts, moving down to Fiyero's legs. Thigh, calf, all the way down to his feet, Peter rubs out his tightness, until he feels the muscles relax in his hold. Good; Fiyero deserves to feel good, on all levels, at every stage of his day.

"Mm, wildfire in the plains is intense," Fiyero answers with a small shrug. No big story attached to it or anything, or at least he doesn't think so. It's just something he knows not to mess with. He does know how to light a fire though.

Mostly he just is too comfortable to maintain conversation. The massage is making him pleasantly zone out, half absorbing what's happening on Mythbusters, as he feels like he's slowly melting into the mattress. Especially once Peter moves onto his legs as well. This would be very good foreplay, and to some extent it might still end up being that. Though it might take a moment, as he's starting to feel rather unwilling to move.

"You're very good at that," he murmurs happily, his body basically turning to putty in Peter's hands. Well, once Fiyero regains his energy, Peter will benefit from Fiyero feeling good, at least.

Peter makes a noncommital humming noise of understanding, though he can't deny he's slightly fascinated. As Fiyero well knows, he's never been outside the city - and while he has run into his fair share of burning apartment buildings, a wildfire eating up acres upon acres of land sounds like a different beast entirely.

Peter sets into a rhythm, careful strokes of his hands, the kneading of his thumbs and knuckles, alternating. He smiles at Fiyero's drowsy mumble - evidence of his contentment, Peter thinks, rather than actual exhaustion - and the way his body seems to slump down into the mattress, tension evaporating.

"It's about pressure," Peter murmurs back, bending Fiyero's leg at the knee to get at the soles of his feet, thumbs rubbing out the muscle carefully. Fiyero's mostly healed, after his traipsing around Manhattan, but Peter avoids his heels to be safe. "And attention to detail..."

He turns back around, when he's finished with Fiyero's legs, going for a gentler round two on Fiyero's back. Now that he's relaxed, Peter can work the tendons of his neck with a more delicate touch, head cocked to the side to listen to the tiny pops in Fiyero's spine when he helps him rolls his shoulders. Peter leans down, pressing a kiss to an unblemished patch of Fiyero's skin, smile pulling at the corners of his mouth. "But I'm very glad you're enjoying yourself, baby."

Fiyero hums, his eyes closing again. He's opening and closing them based on the sounds from the show now, letting them close when they're just standing around talking, but occasionally opening them to watch when something more exciting or interesting or confusing is happening.

He smiles warmly at the kiss and the response. Peter is an amazing boyfriend, so lovely and caring in so many ways, devoted to making Fiyero feel good. Even when he isn't getting sex out of it.

"Mmm, I'm gonna pay you back later, darling," he promised, shifting his hand (on the other arm than the one Peter is currently working on) to caress Peter's leg with his fingertips. Just a small touch of affection.

He knows he doesn't have to 'pay him back', that this isn't transactional in any way. Peter keeps insisting as much, while also wanting to even the score when he feels guilty about coming more often - which you'd think means Peter thinks it's only transactional when it's in his favour, and that can't stand, obviously. Really, Fiyero's words are more a promise for later, letting Peter know he hasn't forgotten. Though really, how could he forget?

"Every time you call me that," Peter bites his lip, slightly pink with admitting it, but maybe it's easier when Fiyero isn't fully looking at him. His hands continue smoothing down Fiyero's back, working out every kink he can find. "S'payment enough, 'yero."

He likes it - it's no secret, at this point, he's said as much - but he really does. Fiyero's lazy, accented drawl, the affection he infuses into the word and the simple touch to punctuate it - Peter really, really likes it. Being Fiyero's darling. Belonging to Fiyero is no hardship, and getting to pour his own devotion back into him, without rejection - yeah, Peter's pretty sure he's making out like a bandit on his end of this deal.

"This," Peter lets his hands smooth over Fiyero's biceps as the massage slows, settling down on top of him - letting his weight act as a blanket, warm skin sliding on skin. Peter nuzzles into Fiyero's neck, lips brushing over his throat. "Mm, it's nice..."

Fiyero's smile widens at Peter's pleasure at the nickname. It makes him want to say it all the time, though he also likes getting a little bit of a reaction out of it, so he doesn't want to overuse it. Then again, it feels like it would be difficult to do too much of something nice.

He hums happily as Peter settles on top of him, shifting a little to accommodate. Moving a foot to hook around Peter's ankle, taking his hand to pull it up to his mouth and kiss it. Making sure the human blanket is very welcome.

There is the small horny part of his brain that has the impulsive thought to offer Peter fucking his thighs in this position, as a warm-up to the pay-back. He resists, partly for the comfort, partly the cleanup, and partly having plans.

"Alright, so no payment. A bonus. Winning a random prize," Fiyero suggests, quietly playful. He gives the impression of being sleepy, but really he's just very comfortable. "So, do you have any requests for your prize? Something in particular you would like to do? Or have done to you, perhaps?"

Peter folds his fingers into Fiyero's when he takes his hand, allowing Fiyero to manipulate his arm until it's partially curled around him, Fiyero's foot brushing up against ankle soothingly. Peter makes a soft noise of happiness, tilting his head to lazily watch the video playing in the background - is it still the same myth? Peter's lost track, focused on Fiyero and getting to touch him.

It probably isn't going to help him beat the besotted boyfriend allegations, how very much Peter's not even thinking about sex. Well, beyond how attracted he is to Fiyero, which seems a given, at this point. He's just soaking up the contact, exhaling softly against Fiyero's ear.

"You're the prize," Peter protests, equally as playful. His hand squeezes Fiyero's, two firm pumps before they settle against the sheets, still entwined. "Um..."

Clearly, he hadn't thought that far ahead, about what Fiyero could do with him - or rather, what he wanted Fiyero to do with him. What he wants and what he gets in life are usually so incongruent, it's not worth contemplating. But Fiyero's asking and he doesn't have an answer, and Peter tries not to feel like a total dweeb about it.

"I don't know," Peter says, voice low, almost apologetic. "I'm uh... pretty easy to please, I guess. I just... want to be with you."

Which sounds so lame, and Peter feels his cheeks heating, so he buries his face in Fiyero's hair, muscles shifting over top of him. He was focused on whether or not tying him up could be viable, he hadn't considered what they'd do once he was. "...I don't want to have to hold back. To think about controlling myself, you know? If, um... if that's possible. And it might not be! I don't actually know if this will work."

The show has long since moved on from the exploding toilet myth. They seem to put multiple in the same episode, though Fiyero's attention isn't very devoted to it anymore. In fact it immediately fades into the background the moment they start talking about sex. Unsurprisingly.

It doesn't surprise him that Peter doesn't have an answer ready to go. They've already experimented far beyond what either of them imagined, and Peter doesn't really ask for things for his own pleasure. Fiyero's not too worried about pleasing him. But if there are some fun ideas in there, Fiyero does want to coax them out. Fiyero himself is mostly running on old fantasies, brand new inspirations, and whatever impulses that occur while having fun.

"You're definitely getting that," Fiyero answers warmly, kissing Peter's hand again. He can almost feel the heat of his embarrassment, though Fiyero is probably just imagining it from the bashful sound of his voice. Fiyero is patient though, giving Peter time and room to think it over.

"Well, I'm up for trying if you are," Fiyero answers encouragingly, once Peter elaborates on what the appeal of being tied up is. It makes sense, it occurs to Fiyero. Peter has a lot of power and seems constantly aware of it, especially when it comes to hurting Fiyero. Of course he'd want a break from that. Fiyero can relate, even if his control has more to do with composure than physical strength.

He starts shifting a bit, nudging at Peter to lift himself up a bit. Though once Peter does, Fiyero simply rolls over onto his back, wrapping his arms around Peter's waist and pulling him closer, getting him to settle back on top of Fiyero while they can look at each other - or snuggle into each other's necks.

"So, what do you think would make you lose control?" Fiyero asks, smiling a bit cheekily. "Being teased? Coming repeatedly? Being touched in a certain way? How do I drive you wild, darling?" He definitely emphasises the pet name, and the slightly smug look is simultaneously very warm and affectionate.

Peter... might have a few. Buried in there somewhere - like the thigh fucking. That was pretty alright, wasn't it? And he definitely has a few long dormant fantasies that have been re-awoken by that gag they bought. Curiously, none of the formless masturbation material has ever involved him in the gag... not that he'd be opposed. But those kinds of fantasies never really crossed his mind; he tried being the submissive one in encounters he wasn't emotionally invested in, and it really did not work for him. None of it worked for him, but especially that: vulnerability. With Fiyero... it's different. He trusts Fiyero, and trust is not an easy thing to come by... least of all like this, knowing he can be fully himself, without reservation.

Peter shifts, accommodating the wordless request and adjusting so Fiyero can roll over and they can tangle together, easy and comfortable. One of Peter's hands folds beneath Fiyero's arm, warm against his shoulder; the other reaches up, brushing Fiyero's hair out of his eyes, from where it's floofed on the pillow.

"I don't know. I've never - lost control." Peter admits, again almost apologetic. Like he should have, maybe, in preparation; what's a nerd's worst nightmare, aside from a test they haven't studied for? But of course, it makes sense that he's never lost control. The closest he's ever come was ripping that pillow the other day. This is... new territory for them both. "Probably being teased. I don't know what the upper limit is on orgasms..."

No one's ever tried to get him to come as much as Fiyero has, including himself. It mostly happens incidentally - or it did. He wets his lips, biting the lower one and ducking his head, bangs flopping over his eyes as his gaze drops to the sinuous lines of Fiyero's clavicle. It's not the talking about sex that's doing it, exactly - but if Fiyero keeps calling him by that affectionate nickname, it's definitely doing something.

"Tugging my hair." Ah, finally something actionable! He's mumbling it into Fiyero's chest like it's a confession, but at least he's being honest. "Everything is... you know, dialed to 11."

"I like kissing." His lips drag up Fiyero's neck to his jaw, nuzzling there, just breathing him in. Like he said, his senses are heightened. What's going to drive him wild? Everything. "I like tasting you..."

Based on their activities so far, Fiyero would say Peter makes a very good submissive. Sometimes not as intensely, where it's more like Fiyero is taking the lead or giving some challenge to Peter. But then when Peter was on his knees, getting his mouth fucked? He seemed very into that. Using the gag on Peter has definitely occurred to Fiyero, and he might - but unlike the webbing, the gag would be more of a reminder than a restriction. Not something he can fully lose control with. But then, Fiyero definitely has no intention of having anything in Peter's mouth while making him lose control.

Or trying to, at any rate. He's very aware that needs to be approached gently, cautiously. He'll work up to it, and try to play off Peter's reactions. And he knows that he wants to make sure Peter feels appreciated and wanted and loved. That any admonishment would be very gentle, if he gets Peter into any sort of vulnerable headspace again...

Fiyero's definitely taking mental notes, even as he's tracing gentle patterns across Peter's back, giving Peter encouraging little nods to show he's listening. Letting Peter think it through in his own time. The admission of 'tugging my hair' earns Peter a pleased noise, one of Fiyero's hands coming up to run through Peter's fluffy hair. Yes, they both like that, but it's nice to hear Peter point it out.

Fiyero hums in happy acknowledgement, cupping the back of Peter's head as he nuzzles into his neck, letting him hide there. No big surprises, just nice specifications. Having Peter actually say things he specifically likes is a win it itself, right.

"Well, I like everything you've said so far," Fiyero answers, his voice warm with a smile, playing with the hair at Peter's neck. "And, it does feel different, when you're tied up.. Makes everything stronger," he shares, giving a bit of quiet honesty so that Peter isn't the only one having to be a bit vulnerable as they talk.

"I mean.. When I had you on your knees. You weren't physically tied up, but you still seemed.. Like you lost yourself in it a bit. Did you like that?" he asks, voice earnest and almost a little shy. It occurs to him that it had both hair pulling and getting to taste Fiyero quite strongly. And it was Peter being controlled. He didn't lose control exactly, but he relinquished it to Fiyero's will. He still had to keep his control, but he didn't have the responsibility of choosing what to do with it...

There is a difference Peter can't quite articulate, where the line between being dominant or submissive and being confident blurs. Peter doesn't know where he falls, in the dominant/submissive spectrum - though he supposes if it's up to Fiyero, they're going to find out, together. But as he said, he's never truly been able to test it; at least, not without worrying about a thousand other considerations. The confidence... well, that's pretty self-explanatory. Fiyero seems more at home in his own skin than Peter can ever remember being, and while Peter feels like he's been doing a decent job so far, this is a bigger step forward.

Still, Fiyero almost makes it feel easy. He just accepts Peter's answers with encouraging noises and gentle touches that make the tension coiling at the base of his spine ease. Fiyero's hands find their way into his hair and Peter smiles against his neck, something dopey and terribly gooey, if he's being honest. This is what he likes. The truth of the matter is that he'd let Fiyero do just about anything he wanted, provided Fiyero kept making him feel desired, cared for. Maybe that's not the healthiest outlook in the world, but when did Peter ever claim to be well-adjusted?

"Yeah?" Peter retreats enough from Fiyero's neck to peek at him, wide brown eyes peering up at him. He rests his cheek against Fiyero's shoulder, hand sliding down his back, keeping Fiyero held close. "It seemed... intense. Good intense, but, uh... 11's pretty strong. Guess we'll see what happens with 12."

"I... did." His gaze drops to the hollow of Fiyero's throat, the appealing line it makes down to his chest. Everything about him is attractive, and while logically Peter knows he knew that since the moment they met, he also knows what he feels for Fiyero now is making it ten times as strong. Heightened to 11, indeed. "It was hot, you were - hot. It's never been like that before. "

It certainly didn't hurt matters that it touched on a few of Peter's likes and no apparent dislikes. He doesn't mind being controlled - and he doesn't mind being challenged to control himself. It's when the control is a distraction from being in the moment, out of very real necessity, that it's not as fun. But perhaps the webs will fix that...

"I just, ah," Peter huffs a soft titter, tilting his head to press a light kiss to Fiyero's shoulder. "I wanted to make you happy? And I know that sounds like a cop-out, but it's true and I guess - when I failed, you know, at first - that got to me. But you told me how to fix it."

He heaves a sigh, closing his eyes briefly, his own hand curling to rest in Fiyero's hair, buried in blond locks. "And then I didn't have to worry about it. Just had to focus, and I guess I did... get lost in it, a little. It's really never been like that before with - anyone. Just you."

They honestly seem well matched in that they both seem to drift along the dominant and submissive scale. For Fiyero it seems to almost depend on mood. Perhaps it's tied to something deeper, need for control or need for freedom, but he's not sure he's fully aware of that in the moment. Ironically, Fiyero feels somewhat selfish when he wants to be submissive. Even when he's offering himself up to be used, it's not quite as much about making Peter happy as it is satisfying some need in himself.

Perhaps it makes a difference that he knows Peter doesn't truly want to simply use Fiyero for pleasure? Obviously he enjoys it, but in a way where he probably wouldn't if Fiyero wasn't invested in it. It's when Fiyero has been more dominant that he's felt focused on Peter's needs. Maybe that's how it should be? He wouldn't ever want to really exploit Peter, after all. But at the same time, it does give him a thrill, to have that power over Peter. Being able to give Peter something he wants or needs makes Fiyero feel good.

They're probably more alike than they even realise, in some ways. It makes it easier to figure things out together, especially when they can put themselves in each other's shoes so well too. It's also lucky for Peter that even if he'd do just about anything for Fiyero, Fiyero would never want that to be something Peter didn't enjoy. If Peter can't protect himself, at least Fiyero will do his best to. And that sort of consideration is probably part of why Peter feels so strongly and wants to give him so much in the first place.

Fiyero smiles when Peter admits his motivation was simply to make him happy. It's interesting, Fiyero hadn't really planned for making Peter fail, but it worked out. Maybe that was part of it, triggering that kind of emotion? While then being given a chance to be good. It's interesting, but it also seems kind of risky. Fiyero can't help but think of that vulnerable look when Peter hadn't understood why Fiyero laughed. How such a simple thing could affect him.

"I think it's pretty obvious that I haven't had anything like this with anyone," Fiyero answers sweetly. Peter being his first would give him very high expectations - and if he had any plans of having anyone as his second, that might matter, but it doesn't really. "I don't.. really know what I'm doing," he admits with a soft huff. "So it's important you tell me if there's something you want, or something you don't want. Even if you thought you wanted it and you changed your mind..."

They have the safewords and all that, but Fiyero thinks that's something they mostly save for when it's clear it's too much, not when something feels mildly iffy. So for something like tying Peter up, he definitely wants to make sure he gets to be able to talk - at least most of the time. Not springing anything new on him while his mouth is stuffed, at the very least.

At the end of the day, neither was truly right or wrong, so long as they were both enjoying themselves. Different things can be good at different times, satisfying their own inner needs, or paying more care to each other's. For as much as Peter is supposedly the experienced one here, maybe he could stand to take a page out of Fiyero's book and look inward, at what he likes. What makes him happy - without it being so intrinsically tied to making his partner happy.

And yet, it's also true that he's always been this way. He'd declared himself to Gwen, right before everything fell to pieces. You're my path. Right or wrong, they'd never know, but he meant it. Just like he means it now, with the devotion and loyalty he's offering Fiyero. Maybe the thrill Fiyero gets from exerting power over him isn't inherently bad either, the same way Peter's loyalty isn't - but protecting it, protecting him, that's part of the burden. Protecting him... even from himself, when the need arises.

Fiyero's already done more than anyone else has ever managed - just look at them now, curled around each other. Peter's as well-rested, well-fed, and emotionally stable as he's been in ages, and definitely more than he was when they first met.

"An honor I take gleefully," Peter teases softly; humor, wrapped in true feeling. It's not obvious, not until they have those little moments together - when Fiyero is trying something new, that wide-eyed, electric excitement. Getting to do this - to tie Peter up and have his way with him - it's not just about Peter experiencing something new, but Fiyero, getting to explore as well, and why would Peter ever deny him that?

"Of course, 'yero." Peter's eyes flutter open, and he props himself up enough to look at Fiyero seriously, fond smile gracing his lips. "Always. The same goes for you, even when you're the one in control. No one is ever forcing us to go through with something."

His hand looses from Fiyero's hair, fingertip tracing down his brow, the angle of his nose. Reverent, charmed, touching because he can. Peter's finger dips to Fiyero's lips, brushing against the bow of them, before he follows it with a light peck. "Might be easier to tell you what I don't like."

Peter hums quietly in thought, gaze tracking over the planes of Fiyero's face as his hand makes another pass, dragging his fingers along the cut of Fiyero's cheek. "I don't like cold, generally. It feels bad, and when sensory things are unpleasant, I can get overstimulated, which can be painful and trigger a sensory overload attack. Which isn't... just one thing, so you honestly don't need worry about that. It's more like if I'm overwhelmed on a couple of fronts? I'll warn you, but I doubt it gets that far."

"I don't like being hit," His voice softens a little at the admission, fingertips slipping along Fiyero's jaw. "Spanking is okay, if you want. Kind of hot, sometimes. But don't hit me. I get more than enough of that with my day job."

It's an attempt at a joke, but it does beg the question of when the hell someone hit him during sex. Peter tucks his hand under his chin, propping himself up on Fiyero's chest as he looks imploringly up at him. "And... don't be mean?"

Again, seems self-evident, especially after their previous experience. Peter wets his lips again, gaze flitting away, to the shadow of Fiyero's jaw. "You can tease me all you like but... just don't be mean? I don't like that. Even when it's just a game, I - "

He huffs, eyes sliding back up to Fiyero's. Honesty has been their best path forward so far, so. "We're having sex because we care about each other, and I don't really want to pretend otherwise."

Fiyero doesn't have any objections to Peter getting pleasure from making Fiyero happy. But Fiyero wants to do the same thing for Peter, and that does require him having at least some preference. Though, perhaps Fiyero really should try to play on the whole 'pleasing Fiyero' thing more. Give him some goals and praise for achieving them? He's done it a bit, but not very intentionally...

Peter does make him happy though, quite easily. Just the fact that they can have this conversation, softly reassuring each other of how much they respect and care for each other's well-being and happiness and comfort. Fiyero doesn't think he's every been shown this kind of consideration. It still feels foreign, and in a way he's reminding himself as much as he's reminding Peter. He can easily imagine himself pushing through something even if he feels uncomfortable. They're just lucky it hasn't really had a chance to happen yet.

Fiyero leans in to give Peter an appreciative peck on the cheek as Peter returns the sentiment, smiling happily as Peter traces his features with his fingertip. Maybe together they can both get better at not doing things they don't want to.

He doesn't really expect Peter to have a list of kinks and things he wants to try. But maybe they'll uncover more and more of them over time. What actually surprises Fiyero a little bit is that Peter does have a list of things he doesn't like, and that he's comfortable sharing it. It feels like an even deeper level of trust, and it makes Fiyero's heart swell in his chest as he listens. He keeps touching Peter's back encouraging, expression curious and open.

Fiyero's mentally making notes - no cold, that's easy enough. Not something Fiyero had thought to play with. Once again he decides to pack a sweater and a blanket for Peter if they go swinging.

Peter getting sensory overload is important though. Fiyero found himself chasing overstimulation a bit - at the very least as a fantasy, but in general too. Mostly physically - bright lights and loud music don't sound appealing. But intense and overwhelming pleasure and pain, to the point where he can't even think? It's what the post-orgasm stuff was about, really. Something he might want to explore some more, on the receiving end.

That doesn't mean he necessarily wants to dole it out. He does want to overwhelm Peter - make him lose control, as they've talked about. Fiyero did keep thinking about what it would be like to just keep dragging orgasms out of Peter. But this makes him second-guess that. At the very least, he'd want to make sure Peter was in on the plan and able to warn him. It does at least sound like it's mostly unpleasant sensations that are a problem, and Fiyero doesn't really want to focus on them either.

He certainly doesn't want to hit Peter, and his arm tightens a little around Peter's waist at the way his voice softens. Even spanking doesn't sound appealing beyond a playful slap on the butt. It occurs to Fiyero that while experiencing pain might he arousing to him - in the right context and amount - he's not really interested in causing pain. At least not unless Peter was really into it, which it certainly doesn't sound like.

Fiyero's expression is already one of soft sympathy and affection and concern, but it seems to intensify tenfold as Peter tells him not to be mean. Like his heart is breaking for Peter and he just wants to scoop him up and keep him safe, tucked against his chest. He's nodding in agreement as Peter finishes, that he never wants to pretend they don't care.

Before Fiyero can even get to responding, he reaches up to cup Peter's cheek and kiss him. Sweet and prolonged, quite chaste but still lingering. A reassurance, a promise, and a thank you, all in one. Thank you for sharing this with him.

"I promise," he whispers as he breaks the kiss, still hovering an inch away from Peter's face. He brushes his hand through Peter's hair a couple times, leans in for another quick peck, before letting his head fall back to the pillow - arm still looked protectively and perhaps possessively around Peter.

"You know.. when I asked you to be mean to me.." Fiyero says after a quiet moment, thinking back to his request when Peter had first tied him up. "I also didn't mean that you shouldn't care. I meant it more like.. not being too gentle, and not giving me what I wanted. Trying to see how much I could take, that sort of thing. I wouldn't want you to.." Fiyero sighs, looking around for examples. "I don't know, start insulting me or something? Or try to hurt my feelings? And I don't want to do anything like that to you either."

It seems important to specify. He hadn't really been in a headspace to explain in depth at that point. But Peter had taken the request in the perfect direction, with the context of Fiyero's other requests. Being teased and used and played with. Fiyero's pretty sure he would have to pretty explicitly request it for Peter to start being insulting or cruel, and Peter would probably feel weird about it - no matter how much he'd want to please Fiyero. Who knows, perhaps there is some sort of situation where Fiyero would want that - if he needed to work out something, or... well, who knows? But he doubts it's anything he'll want to explore in the near future. And he can't imagine ever wanting to do that to Peter. Certainly not when he looks at him with those imploring eyes and asks him so sweetly to never pretend not to care.

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