Fingers trace your every outline, paint a picture with my hands

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Sunlight streams in through the window, diffused by a light, wispy white curtain. It gives the room a quiet glow, which makes for a very peaceful way to wake up. The clock on the bedside table reads 10:36, blinking over to 10:37 silently. Even the noise of the city seems quieter up here - and it would, considering it's floor 35 out of 37 (Peter's absolutely the one who insisted they not live in a penthouse, are you kidding?) The walls - it's hard to tell what color they are, considering they're completely plastered with pictures. Harry's paintings and Peter's photography, pinned up in an amalgamation of memories. Only one of them is framed, one of Harry's paintings, sitting center above their bed. Peter's got a gradient type of thing going on, different levels of saturation in his pictures. The outside is black and white, leading up to full color where they surround Harry's paintings. Look a little closer and - well, half the pictures are of Harry, laughing, smiling, scowling. Harry, sprawled out asleep on the couch, standing at the stove, bent over an easel concentrating on his detailing. Closeups of his lips, his hair, the crinkle of his eyelids. There's one by the doorjamb of Harry, clearly frustrated at Peter for taking so many damn pictures, reaching out in an obvious attempt to grab the other boy.

Something shifts under the covers, a little fluff of hair sticking out from the white, downy sheets. That would be Peter, in nothing but his boxers, pressing his legs against Harry's and looping an arm loosely over his chest. His ring is warm, warmed by the sleepy heat of Peter's body, but still an obvious presence against Harry's skin - if he's not too distracted by everything else to notice.

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The details - they appear and disappear, perhaps too conveniently, but Harry's investigations are all met with just enough to satisfy; even if, perhaps, sometimes it raises more questions than there are answers. There are things that are glossed over, but others that are met with slick answers (mentally slippery - just enough to answer the question, but perhaps not enough to stick...)

And Peter is there, every time, with honey on his tongue and a smile against Harry's mouth. This, at least, is in HD - every detail, beautifully crafted; the way Peter's mouth molds against Harry's, the way his lips part on a laugh as he licks his way into Harry's mouth. There is no shortage of intricacies to be found there.

He's different than the Peter Harry knows, but maybe...maybe that's better. How often has Harry thought of that sad, broken Peter Parker, anyway? When he has this one - wide-eyed and loving, showering him in affection, no bags under his eyes from sleepless nights. No guilt and shame, no tears, no death anniversary looming to ruin a random, innocuous day every year (or multiple days, as is Peter's curse). Is that Peter even real? How can he be, when he's so far removed from this one - and this one feels incredibly real when he's on top of you, doesn't he?

Harry whispers back to him, and Peter sighs happily, like that's all he's ever wanted to hear, too. His lips find Harry's over and over again, like it's a promise, and his hands slide down Harry's back, inviting him closer and closer, into his embrace (but never too close...)

Peter's hand is in Harry's, his wedding band warm from their skin, and Peter doesn't let go. In fact, he's curling their fingers together, his own thumb rubbing a gentle circle into the back of Harry's hand, and he doesn't have plans to stop anytime soon. Peter grins as Harry flushes, eyebrows rising, and expression Harry's seen a million times on his face, and why wouldn't it appear now? They're the same idiots they were before they're just - in love. Idiots in love. It's kind of perfect. (Not kind of, it is perfect.)

"Mm, you always do," Peter chuckles, mostly to himself, and his smile widens at Harry's laugh. Why wouldn't their first date involve plastic sharks filled with pomegranate juice? That's just the way their life works. Besides, while Harry can do the refined rich person thing, Peter can't; so they wind up meeting in the strangest of middles, most of the time (but the most wonderful, too). "It is, isn't it?"

Peter lights up in response to the awe in Harry's eyes, shining with triumph. He lifts the shark, squeezing Harry's hand. "To an eternity, Harry. Our perfect eternity."

They dump the sharks, and Peter takes a sip before leaning in to kiss Harry again, lips sticky-sweet with the syrup. He hums, and things are a little fuzzy, for a second - it's perfect isn't it perfect, Harry -

"Harry."

That's Peter's voice, but Peter's mouth is still on Harry's.

"Harry."

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It's so perfect that it should raise red flags in every direction, but Harry's so desperate for this reality that he's willing to sink into those ever-so-detailed kisses. Deep down, he knows something is off, but he can't find room to care when Peter's body is pressed against his. Warm, loving, and so happy. It's sad, perhaps, that he doesn't fight it.

Not because he doesn't love that Peter - broken and suffering as he might be - because that Peter has always been enough. His friendship has always been enough. It doesn't stop Harry from wanting him dearly, but it's enough. Rather... he doesn't fight because there's no supervillains, no broken bones or blood, no dreary stressful days here. Because he doesn't have to hide how he feels anymore. Because it's easier to accept this reality than one where there's no peace, one where he has to smother such a significant part of himself.

So, he sinks. Further and further into Peter's arms, into his lips, his sweet laughter. And when they're at the table, celebrating their anniversary, Harry seems so delighted to even just be holding Peter's hand. He's gone-- lost in this wonderful fairy tale of theirs.

"Eternity," he echoes, full of bliss.

He mirrors Peter, taking a sip of his own, and comfortably meets his husband's lips.

--There's been fuzziness and fog before, pervading the edges of his thoughts, his vision. Part of him willfully ignored it, but another part of him itched, wondered, and worried. It's a little harder to ignore this time, when Peter's syrupy sweet lips press against his and a hard buzz vibrates through his head. It's not the feel-good dizzy feeling he's been experiencing with every other kiss before now. More like someone stuck a hornet's nest between his ears--

But then - just like that - it's gone.

"Harry." Suddenly, he hears his name, hears Peter's voice, but... it's everywhere and nowhere all at once. His head buzzes again... faintly. He doesn't get the chance to waffle between ignoring it or investigating further, because Peter's voice calls his name again, only it... sounds like it's a few feet away from him this time.

But Peter's right here-- he's kissing him. Isn't he? Isn't he?

Something cold - like a pool of dread - washes over Harry, his chest clenching so tight he can barely find the space to breathe. It seems so silly, and yet he's terrified to open his eyes. He does anyway. Quick, startled, and--

And it's still Peter. Thank God.

"Did you--?" Harry reflexively glances to his side, to where he heard the voice, and it almost doesn't register. He sees the disheveled hair, the Bambi eyes, the raggedy clothing, and it takes a solid few seconds for his brain to catch up with what he's seeing.

Because the figure standing there-- that's Peter, too.

And once it catches up, it does it all at once, like a ten ton sack of bricks crashing down on his head. Harry lurches backwards with a strangled gasp, toppling over his chair in his frantic attempt to scramble to his feet. He glances wildly between the two Peter's as if he's waiting for one to disappear, to be someone else... Or worse: as if he's waiting to wake up in a psych ward. Poked, prodded, asked a million questions--judged and thrown away for turning out to be crazy just like his father.

Of course that's his first assumption, his worst fear: that he finally snapped and lost his grip on reality.

"Wh--" His mouth refuses to work, to form even a single word. He stares uselessly instead-- those huge brown eyes of his begging for answers well enough on their own. All the while, he tries to make sloppy steps backwards, to backpedal away from the table, but his hand is still in Peter's-- his Peter's. Or... Or is it his Peter? Panic visibly crawls through his chest, clamoring around in his lungs and up his throat.

...It doesn't strike him just yet - in all of his frantic looking about - that the tables around them are suddenly devoid of people. Much too preoccupied with his husband and his doppelganger.

After all, it is his husband. ...Right?

A harsh buzz rattles Harry's head again.

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Harry was gone - Harry was gone - and Peter had to find him. The image of Harry's study, completely smashed, glass everywhere, crunching underfoot as he slowly made his way into the room, horrified, furniture overturned - it was seared into his brain. This was no accident - Harry had been taken. Who would do this? Was it someone after Oscorp? Had someone figured out the connection between Spiderman and Harry? The last one ran his blood cold, every horrible thing that had ever happened because of him swelling up in his mind and choking him.

Peter had, of course, flown into a frenzy to track down whoever had taken his friend, and shockingly, it didn't take that long. Less than fourteen hours after he'd discovered the scene at Harry's mansion found Peter bursting into the hideout and kicking the crap out of everyone he found there. He webbed them all up tight and rushed to Harry's side - Harry, who seemed...fine. He wasn't even restrained, laying on this strange gurney-esque table. He was...asleep? Unconscious?

But there's no sign of injury, and try as he might, Peter can't wake him.

It's been three days since then, and Peter's starting to spiral into a panic. He just doesn't know what to do anymore, he's tried everything. What if Harry...never woke up?

"You have to help me," Peter pleaded, bloody gash still sluggishly healing on his cheek, hair in wild disarray. Harry dangles limp from his arms, head tucked against Peter's chest. He looks peaceful like this, even when Peter feels anything but. He's smiled, once or twice, but other than that, he hasn't even moved.

Dr. Strange regarded him stonily for a moment. "What makes you think it's magical?"

"Magical or not, you're a doctor." Peter insists, and after another tense moment, Strange admits him into the Sanctum.

Two hours of weird humming and the sizzle of Strange's magic through the air (and one scalding cup of Wong's tea) later finds Peter and Strange standing over Harry. "Spit it out, Doc."

"He's in the Sleep." Strange informs him, as if that makes any sense whatsoever. Peter stares, and Strange sighs, a little of the magical-mister-doctor act slipping. "This was an attack of magical nature. They've put him in a dream world."

"What does that mean? Is he okay?" Peter demands, and Strange holds up a hand peaceably to stop him. Peter is practically vibrating with the need to do something, the need to fix this. The need to see Harry, smiling at him again.

"He's fine. But he won't wake up on his own, and I can't undo what's been done." Strange regards him again for a minute, and Peter can't help but feel like he's being sized up. "It's much harder to reverse an enchantment than it is to break it according to its own rules."

"Well how do we do that? Break it, I mean?" Peter's gaze flickers down to Harry's sleeping face - he thinks he sees the curl of a smile at the edge of his mouth, but he could be imagining it. God, please wake up. "Why would someone put him to sleep anyway?"

"Not to sleep. The Sleep." Strange corrects, swirling golden patterns in the air. "To feed off his life energy. And perhaps they thought, even if you found him, you wouldn't have any way of waking him without another magic user to help you."

"You still haven't told me what the hell is going on." Peter points out, and Strange sighs, sounding put-upon.

"They put him in The Sleep, which creates a dream world - but it's his dream world. The greatest, most delightful fantasy his mind can imagine, a place where he's happy. Truly happy. To wake him, you have to convince him that it isn't real - but even then, why would he want to leave? He has to believe the real world is worth coming back to. He has to do it - we can't just pull him out of it."

"Okay." Peter says slowly, processing this. Super fucking weird, but this is his life, he's seen weirder. He can't help but wonder what Harry's dream world looks like, though. His greatest fantasy? "Okay, I can do that."

Strange gives him a look that tells him it's probably going to be harder than it sounds, but this is Harry. His best friend - what other choice does he have? Of course he's going to try and help him. "You get one shot. That's it. If he rejects you, his mind is closed to us forever."

"You couldn't have mentioned that part upfront? Jesus Christ." Peter runs a hand manically through his hair. "I have to help him, Doc. Please. I have to get him back I - help me do that."

***

Peter stares.

When Dr. Strange first started his mumbo jumbo, it had felt like his brain was being covered in a thick, woolen blanket, pushing him down, down down. He let it, allowed it to push him there, until he felt - well, he didn't quite know how to describe it, but he knew immediately that it was Harry. It wasn't easy, as Strange had warned him, cutting through the Sleep to allow himself in; but Peter's willpower combined with Strange's magic was like a spear, pointed and true.

And now, here he was, the world of Harry's fantasy swirling around him, suddenly. His presence disrupted it, made parts of it skip - all the other patrons of this...restaurant? they were in, they disappeared, the background noise dropping down to the low crackle of a fire in the corner. Peter's surprised, though - it definitely feels real, even if it doesn't sound it.

Peter zeroes in on Harry. He's here - but he's also there. Kissing his best friend. "Harry."

Peter stares.

Harry jumps up out of his seat, chair landing with a muted thud (too muted for the hardwood floor they're standing on, more proof to Peter's enhanced senses that this isn't real, isn't real, but Harry is - ), clearly shocked.

Well, that makes two of them. His greatest fantasy. Look, Peter can be dense, but walking in on the two of them lip-locked was pretty obvious.

"Harry." Peter says again, mouth feeling dry, and he wavers as he takes a step forward. He doesn't want to freak him out, especially since Harry probably believes the Peter next to him is real. "Harry it - it's me. It's Peter. I know this is - I know this is a lot, right now, but I need you to listen to me. This is - "

"Harry," The other Peter pipes up, tugging on Harry's hand, which he still has encased in his own grip. Peter knows he shouldn't be mad, that this is just Harry's brain fighting against him (like Strange said it would), but a flare of irritation rises through him. "Are you okay? What's wrong, baby?"

"I'm not a hallucination." Peter cuts in again, taking a few quick, panicked steps forward. He couldn't let the other Peter convince Harry he was just imagining Peter, or he might be pushed out. "I'm not, I'm not I swear. Please, listen to me. Harry?"

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It's hard to hear either of them - really hear them - when Harry's fear is rattling through his whole body. He knows he's not well, mentally-- he's known for a while. Thought about going to therapy a few times, but in the end, it seemed safer just... not to. There's no way he could unravel and heal without spilling secrets that would be very, very dangerous in the wrong hands. And... that in turn means he tends to just deal with it-- tends to pray that the intrusive thoughts don't erupt into full-blown voices one day. Instead, he opts to fall back on alcohol when his head gets too loud.

So here he is: staring between two Peter Parkers, warring between what's real and what isn't. And he hasn't forgotten his "old life", of course, but... the more time he's spent here - with a Peter that's his husband, that loves him as a husband, that kisses him so sweetly - the more that old life has felt like a bad dream. But one way or another, he had to have dreamed up one of those lives, one of them had to be a figment of his imagination... He's just not sure which one. And he's afraid. Terrified. Because... is this it? Has he finally fallen too deep into his father's impossibly long shadow? ...Is he crazy?

What's wrong, baby? His husband(?)'s voice drifts through the fog of petrified fear, gently giving his hand a tug, trying to bring him back to earth. I'm not a hallucination, the other(?) Peter promises, pleading, desperate.

Harry's eyes are so wide, brimming with tears-- it's impossible not to see how scared he is. How desperately he doesn't want to be hallucinating. He's trying his damnedest to think, to scratch through the shock and find some semblance of truth. Something keeps trying to pull him back to the Peter-that's-his-husband, though... Not just the tugs at his hand, but something else. He wants so dearly to squeeze his hand back and sit down and enjoy this dinner that was so carefully planned out and yet--

...And yet the "other" Peter looks and sounds almost as panicked as Harry feels. Something about that feels too organic, too raw for him to ignore. For the moment, he resists obliging the tugs on his hand (and very, very deliberately ignoring the fact that his "husband" apparently can't see his doppelganger, because that makes his head and chest hurt too much).

"I-- I don't understand. If I'm not hallucinating, then--"

--then what the ever-loving fuck is going on?